Just did a studio photoshoot of images I can use for my website. You know the scariest thing is that you can literally create anything you want. And sometimes when people around you say you can’t do it, it feels like it’s something wrong you’re doing by creating your dreams because when taking what they say as the literal truth what you’re doing shouldn’t be possible and I feel guilty!
It’s a mind bending trippy feeling, like I constantly feel like it’s the Truman show or mind manipulation. I love being alone and to call it a mind reset, where nothing is wrong! I am always right haha l
I am happy with how these images turned out. I tried to post these to instagram like…5 times and each time it hasn’t worked.
Then when I click Learn more in Account Status it says I haven’t posted anything that goes against their guidelines. I’m not much for instagram anymore. Y’all come over here to my blog! Sign up to the email list so my new posts can arrive on your inbox. Or I wonder if there is an app just like instagram except…it show cases people’s new blog posts as they are posts and maybe has a better algorithm. Like blog lovin?
I like creating stuff but I don’t like the pressure of creating things like I am working, just like doing it whenever inspiration strikes.
I am getting better at letting things go so that it makes room for better things to come. And after ever challenge I do feel like it sets the push for a better thing which otherwise would not have happened had the original bad thing never happened.
You know with this dating thing, I do feel like I am getting better at it, mostly just letting things go when it is not working and paying attention to or letting the things happen that does feel good. Letting things go and letting things happen! Giving up control and making peace with the past so I can be in the moment and enjoy what is in front of me. That’s the greatest lesson here.
And you know with this thing that happened with this guy that I had this affinity with for so long – I have no idea why, it’s unexplainable, he has really pushed me along so far in this journey just by being a beacon of what is right. I love that he focuses on character, that’s my favourite thing about him. Well it was really hard to let go and not create more of the anxiety and fear I had which eventually led to things just blowing up – which was in part to him really, not really anything I did but his reaction was so…intense which was shocking. He was hurt and I dunno maybe I was insensitive. I had my period so things always end up blowing up when I’m on my period. Urgh.
Whatever happened to just sharing on a blog rather than on Instagram. I say remove the middle man!