Today I remind myself: everything I desire I am already good enough for. I am grateful for what I already have and celebrate how far I have come. I am focused on listening to my intuition and holding the vision in my mind for my desires. Anything is possible and everything I desire is already within me.
I value this time I have to myself and although I feel an urge to re-enact my previous conditioning I know that I can choose to focus on what it is I am desiring to come into reality and the more I practise this the stronger I will be in adopting this new way of being and saying goodbye to the old which will just be a distant memory, one that is harder to go back to the further I travel.
In the moment it feels very uncomfortable, disorienting if I base my actions on my own current feelings, so to not have my feelings lead to actions makes me feel like I have to be patient and have a lot of faith. Holding the vision true in my mind brings up a lot of doubt and fear in my body, as it is something not yet in reality and instinctively I resist something new and unfamiliar, but I know I can begin to guide myself towards soothing these feelings and know that I am safe and that this new thing is going to do good for me and to just hold space for these.
At the moment I feel an urge that something needs to happen every day, but I can take it day by day and focus on doing things that make me happy. Like practising something new except it has incredible meaning for me and therefore more at stake and more emotionally invested in it’s success or failure (fear of failure!). This is something I know that I want because I keep repeating it in my mind, I dream about it and I feel a lot of doubt and fear which shows that this is really something good!
I love to read, it brings me joy and I am grateful to be able to carve out time to do this. I will share with you all the things that I gather, insights and how it has helped me in my life.
I am practising faith, that what is not seen is to be believed to bring it to life. I trust in divine timing and will surrender to the universe and my intuition to guide me. The soul card on the left tells me to wait. There is something I really need guidance and help with – how to deal with someone in your life who is misguided and is stuck there. How to deal with regret that I chose a path to follow them because it gave me comfort (I indulged, well really I needed comfort and chose the wrong person to trust will provide it), how to believe that everything is a lesson and the greater the lesson the more fodder for growth and good things will be coming in my future. I do love where I am at the moment, it feels really good to have these tools, things I now see as being so important and I am grateful <3. I will wait for guidance on these matters, in the meantime I can rest in the knowledge everything will be ok.
The action card on the right talks about remembering to choose in every moment whether to give up choice and let your fate run it’s course, which means to succumb to outside influences, the things that might not serve me; or to choose my destiny which actively requires faith and trust, doing the hard thing in order to go closer to my desires and being it to life. To do the right thing that I know in my heart I should do and make a conscious choice to set up my environment that is most supportive of this. It gives me a lot of peace knowing this card supports me in that choice, though my head is fighting it, this backs me up. Short term discomfort for forever desires. Navigating this does feel like a massive undertaking, like a long wondrous, slow journey of the internal landscape Every new adventure feels like something to overcome and when it is we celebrate, we rest and it’s behind us…until the next thing. And so on and so forth we venture ahead.